Monday morning, I drank my first cup of coffee of the day and alternated between checking blog stats and answering comments. Then a very loud voice shouted in my head.
I stopped what I was doing. Did you say Think big?
“YOU’RE THINKING TOO SMALL,” the voice bellowed again.
I sat up and pondered this scream from my sub-conscious self.
It usually criticized and said cruel things like, “Are you ever going to stop surfing the Internet and get something done today?” Or “You are such a gimp. You wouldn’t have broken your wrist if you had gotten into shape after knee surgery last year.” Or, “You have no life. Make a plan.”
I immediately thought of how my voice was right. I was thinking too small. As part of my resolutions, I had committed to blogging more frequently and have been working to get into a daily routine to finish old and new projects.
- Catch up on blogging and social media.
- Write new blog post.
- Hit the exercise bike.
- Write a few chapters in my new book
- Work on querying first book series.
Like I said, I had been working on it, but hadn’t quite mastered the routine.
MONDAY’S ACTUAL SCHEDULE:
- Checked on blog and social media.
- Wrote new blog post.
- Checked on blog and Twitter.
- Postponed hitting exercise bike until afternoon.
- Checked on blog, Twitter, and Facebook.
- Wrote one new chapter.
- Checked on blog stats and social media.
- Thought about hitting the exercise bike.
- Rewrote the blog post.
- Checked blog stats and comments.
- Finally rode a few miles while reading a book.
- Watched The Bachelor while checking my blog stats, answering comments, live tweeting, and rewriting my blog post and then checked stats again.
Do you see a vicious cycle occurring?
Tuesday morning, I had a conversation in my head. Yes. I’ve embraced talking to myself:
ME: So how can I think bigger?
THOUGHTS: How about hiking Everest?
ME: Too big and I think you were talking about something more career related, right?
THOUGHTS: Sure. How about contests?
ME: Cool. I won one for a screenplay this year, I could enter a few more.
THOUGHTS: You don’t have to brag to me. I’m you.
ME: What else you got?
THOUGHTS: Write an article for a major magazine.
ME: Huh. That’s good. Keep thinking.
THOUGHTS: Before querying that debut novel series again, make it BIGGER.
ME: How? I’ve already rewritten it 876 times.
THOUGHTS: You already know, Grasshopper, you just need to do the work.
ME: I am not going to talk to myself if I’m referred to as “Grasshopper.”
THOUGHTS: Deal, now put on your thinking cap.
ME: Okay. I will.
ME: What else you got?
ME: …….Thoughts! Wake up!
THOUGHTS: Finished already?
ME: No, but I thought I’d hit you up while you’re thinking.
THOUGHTS: *sigh* How about submitting your blog posts to bigger sites or to the newspaper again?
ME: I could do that.
THOUGHTS: Or start your own BIG site.
ME: Pshhh. There’s no way. Nope. Not going to happen.
THOUGHTS: *yawns* How about stand-up or inspirational speaking? *yawns again*
ME: That could happen. I impersonated Michael Jackson without knowing the words to the song. Impersonating an inspirational speaker would be cake in comparison. I do a form of stand-up all the time with strangers. As you know, I have no shame.
ME: Those are great ideas, thank you. But next time, shout something really enlightening, like the winning lottery numbers, or who will be my agent, so I can query that person next and skip the rest. Deal?
ME: Hey! WAKE UP!
ME: ………Dang. I guess, I could check out what’s trending on Twitter.
This actually happened to me. Do you ever have AHA moments like this? What does your inner voice say?